Brainwashed

***Note****  I had to change the age, its not allowed to tell my story with my real age, because I was still a minor when all this happened.  ********************************* So there I was, I went my frist own steps into a strange new country. Normaly it had to be a huge step for such a young person, a adventure. To leave your old life behind to learn a new language, see a new system, live with a new family.  I felt nothing like that. I remember sitting in a plane for hours and feeling myself powerless for hours because there was noone that orderd me, noone that told me what to do. A Stewardess asked me what I wanted to eat but I wasnt able to answer, I was commanded that I am not allowed to choose things. Choices are for humans, I was just a slave. So she descided for me. I wasnt able to use the entertainment program because there was no was dir me to choose a film.. So it was a long fly and the only thing i missed was beeing commanded. When I arrived in New Jersey a n...

***Note****  I had to change the age, its not allowed to tell my story with my real age, because I was still a minor when all this happened.  ********************************* I was an empty shell. My grades were great, I was friendly to my family, I became quiet and I had a "boyfriend", Luke, a guy that was twice as old, he broke my will, stole my mind but everybody thought he was my teen boyfriend from US. I had the best grades in math in the whole class but I wasnt able to decide which clothes I wear in school. I also was not allowed to sleep in bed because beds are for humans and I was just a slave. When I went to bed I was commanded to lock my doof, strip naked and lay down on a carpet infront of my bed. Then I repeated "I am a brainless slave, i have no will, i live to serve my Master" and i wisperted it over and over again until i fall asleep.  When I woke up I put my PC on, waited naked until my E-Mail or Yahoo was open and found his commands their. He knew ...

***Note****  I had to change the age, its not allowed to tell my story with my real age, because I was still a minor when all this happened.  ********************************* Jennifer was gone, in this days I thought she was gone forever and I wasnt able to care about it. I became an empty shell. His daily mind control sessions made sure that there was no part of my old personality left. In this day I didn't know what my favorite color or favorite food is, I wasnt able to decide which clothes I enjoy, there was no possiblity for me to find out if I like a person or not, I was totally helpless without him and he enjoyed it. Sure, I saw my classmates and heared them talk about their favorite clothes or hobbys or friends but this was totally logical to me. They are human. Luke told me that human are able to create their lifes, to decide by their own, also animals can think about their behaviour. Thats completely normal. But I was not a human or a animal, he made me believe that ...

***Note****  I had to change the age, its not allowed to tell my story with my real age, because I was still a minor when all this happened.  ********************************* The time flew by.. I am not sure how long this episode was. I lost nearly all of my friends because I had to be rude around them. I also became one of the best pupil in my class.  For my parents I became more quiet, more reserved, more strange. But they liked my good grades and thought it was just a teenage episode. My mother asked me much often if everything is fine, she saw that I was at home most of time, using the internet at stopped meeting friends. She also saw me walk around naked when I felt like I was alone in the house. My answer was what Luke ordered me to say. I wasnt able to trust my parents anymore. I was an empty case, my will was gone. Luke begann to feel totally safe. For him it was like his biggest dream came true, a brainless girl had the urge to obey him and there was no one to s...

***Note****  I had to change the age, its not allowed to tell my story with my real age, because I was still a minor when all this happened.  ********************************* He asked many questions when he was sure that I was totally under his Power. She had to write down the whole story of my life and i followed this command. After all, he knew everything about my family, school, hobbys, friends, even my phone number, how much money I had, my adress and all of my passwords. When I try to remember everything now, it feels a bit foggy, like i was in a bad dream and I cant remember everything, maybe my mind protects me, I dont know.  What I remember is, that I contacted him a few times everyday because I wasnt able to do my own desicions anymore. I felt like a doll. I had a normal sportive teenage body but my mind was totally empty, like a dark whole. Sure, I was still able to use my memories and to learn new things but he made himself to the center of my mind. He told me...

***Note****  I had to change the age, its not allowed to tell my story with my real age, because I was still a minor when all this happened.  ********************************* He continued with his mind programming the whole night. In the morning he told me to act like i was sick around my parents, so i had to stay at home and he still brainwashed me. At the end of the day I had sleep for 3 or 4 hours, maybe 2 hours break and the rest of the day I got programmed.  For me it felt totally warm and my mind was foggy, I could remember that I made my own choices two days ago but it seemed to be impossible to do this right now.  My mind felt empty and my will was totally gone. Things like my favorite colors, my favorite clothes, music I enjoyed before, my relationship to others, it was gone. If he asked me which colors I liked before, I was able to answer him but if he wanted to know which colors I enjoyed in the moment he asked I had no answer.  He also told me about...